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Nobody can hurt you without your permission.

21 Feb

Hey guys!
It’s been a long time since i’ve posted so this one is very much needed!
I hope you’re all doing okay, i’m sorry i’ve been so quiet, just been really busy with college! I am always here though, if you ever want me or need me, i’m only a message away ♥

I just wanted to write a post with a bit of advice really to those readers who may still be being bullied, or those who are still struggling with the bullying that was in their past.

I know how hard it is to get those comments, and how hard it is to get up everyday just knowing what you are going to have to put up with today, how hard it is to see those people who bully you, how much anger you have for them. Believe me though when i say this, in the future you will be thankful that they put you through what they did, because what they are doing is only making you stronger, and i know this may sound absolutely stupid, but take it from someone who has been there. You may feel so low and so sensitive, but when you come out of this, when all this finally stops, you will be so much stronger, and you will be such a good person, if you let yourself be. You’ve been through this pain, you can say “i don’t want anyone else to go through that” and you can be such a kind person, not judge anyone and not say a bad word to or about anyone, i know right now you won’t be able to see any positive in what you are going through, what you are going through shouldn’t be happening, and more needs to be done to stop it.

Those names they call you, they aren’t true, you’re beautiful, everyone is beautiful, everyone is unique, don’t listen to what they have to say, do they even know you? Have they been your friend, do they know what you are like? Or have they just judged you and decided it would be fun to make your life miserable? I still don’t understand how these people can do this, i mean.. why would you want to call somebody names so that they feel so bad about themselves that they want to change.. they don’t feel good enough for anyone anymore.. i just don’t get it.. I know people say it’s because they have their own problems or that they have low confidence about themselves but.. no i still don’t understand,

Believe me when i say you are good enough, you deserve to be happy, you deserve a great future full of happiness and nothing like this. I know it’s hard at the moment, but things get better, and i really do mean that! I’ve been in your shoes, i’ve been so low that i didn’t want to be alive, i’ve starved myself because these people told me i was fat, so i needed to change right? WRONG! We don’t need to change ourselves, these people will never like us and will never be our friends, so why should we change ourselves for them? We’re great just the way we are, and anyway.. nobody is perfect, not even them!

Just remember guys, you do matter and you are so important!
And things will get better, the future is bright although you may not be able to see the light yet ♥

I’m always thinking of you guys, and i’m only a message away,
Stay Strong,
Beth xxxx


Your Questions.

10 Apr

Thank you so much for all of your questions! I hope that these may help someone in some way!

Does bullying happen a lot?/Is it very common?
Yes, i think that everyone is bullied at least once at some point in their life. And most of the time it isn’t reported so we don’t know about it, so i think the statistics of bullying are wrong, because some people don’t speak out about it for various different reasons. It doesn’t just happen in schools, it happens in work places too. And it happens to so many people, wrecks so many people’s lives.

Are some people more likely to be bullied than others?
I hate to say it but yes, it’s completely wrong and shouldn’t happen, but the people that are quiet seem to be targeted, like me, i was so quiet and i still am, and sadly some people don’t try to make friends with the quiet people, when really they could be missing out on a great friendship. But for those of you that are quiet, like me, don’t worry because the people who make the effort to get to know you will be real friends!

Why in the World do some people bully others?
I ask this question a lot, and most people say that it’s because they have their own problems, they may not like themselves and they feel better for making someone else not feel good about themselves, they may want attention, they may do it for their ‘popularity’ – i hate that word, why should you bully someone to look good in someone else’s eyes? Just confuses me so much. You don’t have to make yourself look good to others, if you aren’t ‘good enough’ for someone or for a group of people, then they don’t deserve you!

Why does the bullying so often stay a secret?
I guess sometimes the person who is being bullied may be scared to tell someone incase that person you told spoke to the bully, and then you may think it would get worse, that’s what i thought anyway. Or maybe you think that it’s not important, or that the person you are telling is too busy to be dealing with this issue.

What should i do if i’m being bullied?
Tell someone! A teacher, a family member, a friend, a helpline, just speak to somebody, it can feel so lonely going through this on your own so it’s important that you have someone to help you out. And hopefully the bullying should get sorted out, if not (depending on where the bullying is happening) :
School – Headteacher – They can do more than the other staff members so they should help, and its important that you speak to them, and if it doesn’t stop make sure you go back, and keep going back until it is finally stopped!
Work – Boss – Your boss has to make sure that everything is okay at work, and if something isn’t then they have to sort out the problem.
In the community – Police – I know when i got told that i could go to the police, i thought it was a bit strange, but really, they can help you so much, even if you don’t want to tell them names, they can just give you advice.
Just please tell somebody and get it sorted, it hurts so much to go through so the quicker you get out of the situation and its sorted, the better! You shouldn’t have to go through it!

How do you help someone who is being bullied?
Get proper support for them, make sure the bullying is stopped, talk to them about all the options available, make sure they have someone to talk to if something happens, make sure they know they aren’t going through this on their own. Make sure that they know they can change schools if the bullying still doesn’t stop, but really, they shouldn’t have to move school because you should do everything within your power to stop the bullying!

Can you talk about the effects of bullying? Both in terms of behaviors and feelings and states that get created?
The effects of bullying are so serious, people don’t realise how bad they can be. In my experience, the behaviours that i created were, self harming, cutting down my food, exercising more, taking laxatives, attempting suicide on various occasions  never feeling good enough, never feeling pretty, became very anxious, stayed in the house a lot, i became angry and very upset, i’d stay in my room most of the time because i’d had enough of people, i just wanted to be alone.

What has helped *you* in your experience of having been bullied, at the time and later on?
Hm the hardest bit to answer of this question would be what helped me while i was being bullied, i don’t think the school were very good with helping me, they did try, and i thank them for that, but they could of done so much more. I had counselling while i was going through this time which was helpful sometimes, urm, therapy was helpful sometimes too, i went to CAMHS, because of my self harm and suicidal thoughts and actions, i was told to go to DBT group, to help me with my self harm. Because of how much weight i lost i had to go to see my GP once a week to get weighed, and she gave me support with other things too, and speaking with charities like samaritans was so helpful! They don’t care what you say to them, they won’t tell anyone, and they just want to help you, and they care so much!

Is there anything you can to help those who are the bullies? Is there anything we can do to affect them and help them change their behaviors?
I guess we can just tell them and show them what their actions and words can do to someone. Find out why they are doing it, and if they are doing it because they have their own problems then get them support for their problems so they can work through it/them. If they are doing it for popularity then just ask why they want to be friends with people who they aren’t good enough for already? Because everyone is good enough, and if people can’t see that then, leave them, you can find better people.

When you were being bullied, were there times when you blamed yourself, thinking it must be something you were doing wrong?
Yes, i used to think it was something i was doing wrong all of the time, i wasn’t doing what everyone else my age was doing, so i just thought it was because of that, but then i realised that its nothing to do with me, its their problem, and even if i did change myself i would still get treated the same, so i decided to just stay the same and be liked for who i really am.

How about describing how it all started, little things that you try &ignore but then get bigger.Many know the affect may not see the start.
It started as really small things really, the odd comment, rumours being spread every now and then, i just thought it would stop after a while, i didn’t think it would ever get worse. And even  though it wasn’t happening much, i still told somebody. It didn’t affect me much at first either, but the more it happened, the more it affected me. I just tried to ignore it, because of how little it happened, but it just got worse in time. And it is so so hard to try and ignore something like this when it is happening to you, i know it sounds so easy when you tell someone to ignore it, but believe me, it’s easier said than done.

How would you explain to family/friends that you aren’t fixed like they think and that you still self harm?
I have this problem so often, especially with summer coming up now. I know that it is so hard to tell someone that you still do it, i guess its easier to write it down? Or one day when someone says something about it, just come out with it and tell them. Or maybe you could get someone else to tell them? Like someone that already knows? Just explain to them that you want someone to know but you are finding it hard to tell them yourself. Don’t go through this on your own.

What do you think are the main causes of bullying?
I think one of the main causes is how judgemental people are, as soon as you see someone its hard not to judge them on their appearance, but just because of how someone looks, you shouldn’t not talk to them. Popularity is a cause of bullying in school, young people care so much about how popular they are with the other people, that they will do things just to get more popular. And also, the person who is doing the bullying, their own problems are what cause them to bully, just like one of the questions above, bullying someone and making that person feel bad, might make them feel better about themselves.

Did your mind make you think that there were more people involved/against you then there actually were?
I guess so after a while yes, because my self esteem and confidence had got so low, so the littlest things would get to me. I knew that some people were just being silly, i knew there were the few ‘main’ people who did it the most.

If you feel depressed or anxious, does music ever help you to feel better?
Yes! I always listen to music when i feel down or anxious, sometimes when i go for a walk on my own i’ll listen to music so that i don’t feel too bad, it kind of takes my mind of feeling anxious a bit. Sometimes when i feel depressed i listen to sad music, which may not be the best idea, but it just helps to listen to someone singing about how you’re feeling, because that’s just another person who’s been through it, and got through it, and i will too.

Did you have a special friend that you could confide in or gain support from?
I had a few friends but they couldn’t really support me, sometimes they’d say something if someone says something to me because in the end i got too afraid to speak back, but i guess sometimes they were quite worried that if they said something they would start bullying them too. I did talk to my friends sometimes about it though.

Do you believe those who harmed you learned how to be better people or are they still harming others?
I hope that they are better people, because they wont get very far in life if they aren’t. But i know that sadly some of them are still the safe, and they probably won’t change, i see them sometimes and they still treat me the same, but i don’t see them very often luckily. And sadly they are harming other too, i wish they would just grow up.

I would never wish badly upon someone, even the way i’ve been treated by these people. I just hope that they can grow up and become better people so that they can get somewhere in life. I’d like to thank them though too, because they have made me who i am today, and to be honest, i like the type of person i am. Yes they may be the reason for all of my problems, but, they are also the reason for why i created this blog, and the reason why i met all of you amazing people!
So, thank you so much bullies.

If you have anymore questions just comment below or, email me or tweet me @Hidden_Beth
And please, take care and stay strong because we CAN get through this!

My Dream.

5 Mar

Do you know what my biggest dream is, it’s to live in a World where people aren’t afraid to be themselves, where people aren’t judged for what they look like before someone even tries to get to know them, where we can walk down the street without being scared of what comments might be thrown at us, where we can carry on with our education or work instead of being too scared incase we get bullied again and so much more.


People don’t realise how serious bullying is, if you listen to the stories people tell you about their experiences and what they have been through because of bullying you will start to understand.


If someone doesn’t like you because of the way you look or the way you dress or anything, then the truth is, they don’t deserve you. You will find people who love you for who you are and accept you for who you are and they’re the real friends.

Another big dream of mine is to one day work for an anti bullying charity or to maybe even create my own. I just absolutely love trying to help stop bullying.


Stay Strong And Speak Up.

Don’t Be Silenced.


I Am Who I Am.

31 Mar

I like to go for walks but i get so nervous, when i go for walks around my area people just make comments at me as i walk past. I just walk past them, not saying anything and not even looking at them and they just make comments saying i’m ‘fat’ or ‘ugly’. A few days ago i actually got followed home. Or if i’m walking over the road from them and they see me they’ll shout across to me.

I’d like to be able to just walk around and feel safe, but i don’t.

Some of these people don’t even know my name! They know me through their ‘friends’ but they don’t know anything about me. Some of them were in my school but they have never spoken to me, never tried to get to know me or anything. It seems if their friends don’t like me they don’t like me either, or because their friends make comments to me they can too.

I know that i’m not the only person that goes through this, but i just wanted to speak up about it, so others know they aren’t alone. I want other people to know that they should do something about it, they should get help to get it stopped, don’t let it happen.

“I am who i am, and refuse to change for anyone.”
Thanks for reading.

We’re Still Human.

12 Dec

To judge someone is to think you know them before you’ve even spoken to them and to think that you see it the right way, when you probably don’t. Everyone does it, even if you try not to you still can’t help doing it.

People are judged because of their appearence, name, taste in music, clothes, their hair colour, skin colour, for being quiet, for being loud, age, background, their past, job, and so much more.
What someone looks like doesn’t define who they are, if someone has ginger hair it doesn’t mean they are any different to you.
You can never be perfect, you’re judged for being too quiet, judged for being too loud, for being too skinny or too fat. Nobody is perfect.

-You shouldn’t judge someone because of what they do because you don’t know why they do it.
-“You laugh because you think i’m different, i laugh because you guys are all the same”

Judging someone and treating them differently because you judged them isn’t going to make you a better person. Everyone is human and everyone has feelings that can be hurt.

You can’t judge someone because of their past, you can’t understand what someone has been through or what someone has done unless you’ve been in the same situation.
I left school because of bullying and people judge me for it, they just think i left school because i was too lazy and they think i can’t be bothered to do anything else. They don’t bother to ask me they just think they know the real reason.

Don’t Judge & Don’t Bully.
Together We Can End Bullying.

Just All Lies?

30 Oct

Everything bullies say to you or about you is a lie. I’ve only just realised this, it took me a long time to believe.
Some things they say I still think are true because they’ve wrecked my confidence so much but one thing I definitely am not is fat.
I’ve had problems with eating ever since they called me fat and I’ve lost weight since then but I never have actually been fat.
Nobody is perfect and bullies are just jealous of you or something you have that they don’t.

Don’t believe what they say and don’t change because of them, just be yourself, you’re perfect as you are ❤

Stay strong, you’re better than them.

You can’t please everyone.

7 Oct

You eat, you’re fat. You don’t eat, you’re a freak. You drink, you’re an alcoholic. You don’t drink, you’re weird. You read, you’re a nerd. You don’t read, you’re stupid. You tell a secret, you’re an attention seeker. You don’t tell a secret, you’re still attention seeking. You let someone in, you’re easy. You don’t let someone in, you’re too uptight. You smoke, you think you’re cool. You don’t smoke, you’re a loser. You’ve had sex, you’re a slut. You haven’t had sex, you’re frigid. You wear makeup, you’re a slag. You don’t wear makeup, you’re ugly.
You can’t please everyone.

Together we can end bullying.


I know what it’s like.

30 Sep

I know what it’s like to feel so alone that even in a room full of people you still feel on you’re own.
I know what it’s like to just want to be accepted so you change yourself and it still doesn’t seem to work.
I know what it’s like to think “what did I do to deserve this?”
I know what it’s like to want to give up and end it all.
I know what it’s like to trust no one at all because you’re scared that everyone is just the same.
I know what it’s like to build up relationships and then you loose them so you blame yourself.
I know what it’s like to worry about the bad things before you do anything so then you end up not doing it anyway.
I know what it’s like to think everyone is against you.
I know what it’s like when you finally build up the courage to trust someone but then they don’t understand so you have to start all over again.
I know what it’s like to hate every single thing about yourself and because of that you can hardly look in a mirror.
I know what it’s like to be scared of life, and scared of having a future.
I know what it’s like to not want a future.

I just want you to know you’re not alone.

Things Need To Change.

26 Sep

How people try to stop bullying needs to change. When I tried to get help with the bullying the teachers would say “we’ll have to speak to them” and that would scare me because I’d worry about the bullying getting worse.
The victims of bullying are just put into counselling/therapy but shouldn’t it be the bullies that get the counselling?
I was made to feel like I was doing wrong when I went to speak to the teachers but they should make you feel welcome and understood.

Together we can stop bullying.


9 Sep

I hate it when people say “I understand”. Nobody can understand what its like to be a victim of bullying unless they’re been through it themselves.
We can tell you how we feel but you won’t be able to feel it and have to feel it all the time like we do.
Sometimes it just feels like the whole world is against us and that things wouldn’t be any different if we weren’t here.
It just feels like you’re alone and nobody really wants to know you. We sometimes wonder if we’ll ever be accepted for who we really are.
Some of us may pretend to be someone were not just because you won’t accept us for who we really are.

If only things could be different.
We shouldn’t have to live like this.