I have some bad news, the bullying is starting up again, i’m getting messages on facebook and words said to my face, or when i walk past them, the main person causing this is an old best friend, she knows what i went through when i was bullied in school, she knows how ill i got. It’s so sad that she’s treating me like this, she wrote on facebook that she wishes i was dead. What she doesn’t know is that, i’m still very much suicidal, so it is so easy for me to say “you know what, i’ll do what you want, i’ll go and die”
It’s disgusting what she is doing, and very upsetting for me, how am i supposed to get better now this is starting up again?
I can feel myself getting worse again, i just want to cry all the time, i’m so fed up, but i have to battle through! I’ve been called all the names they can call me already, so nothing new there, i just have to let it go over my head!
I’m exhausted from recovery, i don’t need this happening too, i have to try so hard everyday to get through it, but now it’s even harder!
I can do this right? I can get through this again, i’ve done it before, i know it was hard but i have to do this!
Stay Strong With Me x