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Faded The View Of Myself

3 Aug

Hi guys!

I just wanted to post about life after bullying, obviously this can vary depending on everyone’s different experiences but I just wanted to make people realise the affects of bullying, not only are there serious effects on the person during the bullying but this could affect the individuals future after the bullying too!

I would love to one day forget all those nasty words that were said, but I am still living in the picture they painted of me, that ugly, fat girl. I often cry when I look at myself in the mirror as I am disgusted with what I see standing in front of me. The bullies have faded the view I have of myself, 4 years on and I’m still struggling.

My low self esteem affects me everyday, I just want to feel pretty and good enough for myself but I can’t see that ever happening, I am so unhappy with the way I look. My boyfriend is very good and supportive with me, he tells me I am beautiful but I just can’t see it, I feel so ugly all the time, and I have to admit I take a lot of pictures of myself to try and make myself feel pretty, and to try to say to myself ‘oh that’s a good picture of me’ but I just don’t see myself anything other than ugly.

It’s horrible to think that’s it’s been 4 years since I left school and I’m still letting it affect my life, but those years of bullying have really affected me and probably always will in some way!

Sorry for the negative post guys ❤️

Hold Onto Your Self Esteem.

7 Jan

Bullying is a big cause of eating disorders. Beat interviewed more than 600 young adults suffering from anorexia, bulimia or binge eating. Ninety one percent of these teens said they had been bulled, and almost half said they believed that bullying had contributed to their eating disorder.

“Bullying lowers your self-esteem and having low self esteem is a really big risk factor for an eating disorder developing,”

When you call someone fat so many times they’ll start to believe it.

Some people find that eating disorders give them some sort of control over something, and also they may see this as a way to stop the bullying if they bullies are saying that they are fat.
I was called fat, and i have problems with eating, i haven’t actually been diagnosed with an eating disorder but i’ve lost a lot of weight since they started calling me fat.

Beat provides helplines, online support and a network of UK-wide self-help groups to help adults and young people in the UK beat their eating disorders. http://www.b-eat.co.uk/

Don’t let them break you down.
Stay strong and hold your head high.